Another Night Another Dream Awaits You

Yes the link is to the song that my title is refering to... its funny to me because random songs pop into my head all of the time no rhyme or reason... anyways enough about my ADD...

My Thoughts Today:

-Just when you think things are starting to look up something comes along to kick you in the face and say "Hello, are you kidding me? You're not that lucky!" My job search continues, as it has for the past 5 months... Application after Application, resume after resume, honestly  the whole thing is tedious and depressing... and what is the government doing with their money?! PUTTING IN A HIGH SPEED RAIL WAY!!! News flash Obama... nobody uses the train anymore, if we aren't commuting by plane, it's by bus or car... seriously! Oh "it will create more jobs" blah blah blah... Well what about people like me I am not capable of nor would I work on a rail road... So where is my work? Where is my chance to be part of society? I have college loans to pay back, for a degree that has obviously gotten me no where... Where is the justce in that? Oh and income taxes... I would like to know what megalomaniac came up with that idea... "Let's pay the government lots and lots of money and only see half of it, or for some pay even more!" I have one word for that person, STUPID! Seriously... we are giving the government money money money and yet nobody is seeing anything for it... except a STUPID RAILWAY!!! Sorry I just can't get over how "useful" my tax dollars are in the hands of sheer ignorance...

-I think I would like to become a cake decorator... like on the cake boss. Part of me wishes that I could have done that instead of going to college for the ridiculous major that I did. I really enjoy it, and with no training/education and limited resources/tools I think I do a pretty good job! For example, I do all of the birthday cakes for my family, and one that I was particularly happy with the end result was my 4 year old cousin's most recent cake. It's a 'Handy Manny' Cake after his favorite show on the disney channel. See below:

This is a website to show you the actual character...

http://tv.disney.go.com/playhouse/handymanny/index.html

Doing something like this would make me truly happy, seeing as whenever I am heavily stressed I bake. Also the final product always gives me a sense of pride and accomplishment, things I think most people hope to achieve at least once in their lifetime.

- My positive note... I am going on Monday to David's Bridal to get fitted for my wedding gown! :-) I am so happy I could cry! (happy tears of course) If nothing else I have my dress! Hopefully the money will fall into place SOON!!! (I hope I hope I hope I hope) My interview today went well but I am still nervous as hell! Something's gotta give right? I pray to God!

Well that's all for tonight... I leave you with my quote of the day...

"Throughout the Bible, God shows a marked preference for 'real' people over 'good' people."

- Philip Yancey -

Blog Virgin

Let me start out by saying this is my first time ever blogging. I am always overrun with thoughts and information that to most is useless and annoying. SO... after talking to several people who blog they suggested that I try it as it seems to be very therapeutic. "It's a way to get your thoughts out there without worrying about boring someone with them, if people don't want to read it they won't and if they do they will." A very interesting statement that I pondered for quite some time and finally decided what the hell... why not?

My Thoughts Today:

-It's funny how someone you have known your whole life, who was a seemingly thoughtful and caring person and supposedly loved you can change by merely uprooting their lives and the lives of those near and dear to you. I have always been the "forgive but never forget" type, and now that stream of conscience has led me to lose all respect for this person. Anyone willing to make so many good people endure a life of loneliness, insecurity, instability, and heart ache for their own selfish purposes, to reign as king in a floundering kingdom of lies and despair. I don't have it in my heart to hate, because I am a good person. But I strongly dislike everything being done and the person that you're becoming. I can deal with change but not when it's from good to bad... Fate and destiny has a way of catching up with you no matter how fast or how far you run... Oddly enough this thought transcends into my next one...

-"Bad things happen to good people" I don't know if there is any truer of a statement. It pains me to watch my family and friends (who by the way are good people) suffer. Money problems, family turmoil, and relationship issues... It's an awful thing to have to watch those close to your heart struggle to cope and lose hope... In today's world that's what many of us live on, it's the only thing that makes us get up in the morning... A glimmering hope for a better day then yesterday... Depressing? I should say so!

-On a positive note (I'm going to make that my mission to end on a positive note every time, 'no promises though!') I am 99.99999% positive that I have found my wedding gown! You know... I never thought that I would be one of those girls... You know the ones you see in movies or on those shows on TLC and WE TV (which by the way I am OBSESSED with) where they get all giddy and sappy... But I did! I was giddy as a school girl ha ha ha... The dress is perfect! My Cinderella-Fairytale-Dream gown! If anyone cares to look its on http://www.davidsbridal.com/ and in the top right hand corner you will see a box to punch in style numbers and keywords etc. punch in T9513... I am smiling from ear to ear just writing about it!

Well thats all for now, and my friends were right... This is the perfect outlet for me! I feel better already!

I end my first blog post with an inspirational quote, which I think I am going to make a regular occurence (sort of my signature)

"The future depends on what we do in the present."

- Mahatma Gandhi -